Guess what? I'm Bilingual! Un Dia en la Vida...

Fue un spin-off de una tarea de me coaching innovativo. Me lo complemento mi coach, así que pensé compartirlo:


Bueno, pues. Cuando salí de la sesión estaba algo molesta. Desafiaste un gran numero de mis falsas creencias, tonces me sentí como a la defensiva. Pero cool, ya que me puso a pensar. Y bueno, me fui al Multiplaza, y en el tiempo que me tomo almorzar me tranquilize y me puse a pensar con mente mas clara.

Así que decidí hacer lo que sugeriste: andar por ahí y disfrutar de lo que me gustaba. Así que decidí comer postre antes de seguir. Me fui al Crepes-and-Waffles y compre un helado de pistacho. Ahora, comprendeme en esto. Hace diez a;os que fui a Italia y me enamore con ese helado. He buscado algo que se compare desde entonces, sin éxito. Bueno, Crepes-and-Waffles tenia el mejor helado de pistacho que he probado en diez a;os.

Eso me puso de buen humor de inmediato. Y bueno, pase mi rato asi, sin tomar cuenta del tiempo. Me di el lujo de babosearme todo lo que habia en la tienda de Swarovski, probe cosas en Payless sin preocuparme que no se me vieran bien y consigui un gorro super que no compre por que si, vi una camisa para el dia del Padre que me dio risa apensa la lei en Hallmark y la compre de immediato. La pase muy bien una vez que mande al carajo el hecho que no me gusta estar en el mall porque nada me queda y no quiero gastar plata.

Genial despues fue que, con la mudanza y todo, cuando le preguntaba a mi mami si algo estaba bien aqui o alla ella insistio que decidiera yo, que confiaba en lo que hiciera. Quede extra;anada y me costo parar de pedirle que me diga que hacer. Me voy dando cuenta de lo que aprendi a hacer sin querer en el cole. Tambien me hizo darme cuenta que verdaderamente soy libre de hacer cosas como yo personalmente quiera, cuando quiera.

Y bueno, me relaje un poco. Todavia me tuvo que ayudar mi mami a no quedarme enfrascada en cosas que no puedo cambiar, pero igual, me deje llevar, pare de sentir culpa por ser silly porque la verdad disfruto ser silly -hace que la gente se ria y no me cuesta nada menos orgullo, que me voy dando cuenta me impide muchas cosas. Soy inteligente, pero ya estoy viendo que eso no quiere decir que lo tengo que estar "demostrando" con cada oportunidad. No es una habilidad necesaria, y además, combinado con mi falta de sentido comun me vuelve ridicula. Admito que si me estoy cansando de que mi mama comente que hay que devolver mi diploma. Pero también me doy cuenta que esa es la parte en mi que toma todo en serio, algo que ha sido parte de mi por mucho tiempo, pero que no deseo mantener.

Ah, y por cierto. Me corte el pelo. xD

"My Wife Got Married"

I just watched an interesting movie called "My Wife Got Married." Korean drama. What was interesting about it, I thought, was that it dealt with the issues of a bigamous marriage, only it was the wife that has two husbands, not the husband who had two wives. Don't know if I'd personally be in favor of such a union or not, but that's not the point.

The point is, they worked with the issues that relationship would have, and I thought they dealt with it very well. It wasn't perfect. In fact, I think the child, born several years after the establishment of this bigamous marriage, was almost two years old before some of the issues were resolved. What I found interesting was that it did work out, and that it took the absence of the woman both men loved to get them to recognize and build their own relationship as co-husbands and fathers. Also interesting is the fact that, even after the wife had let them know where she was after she disappeared with the baby, they didn't go there right away, couldn't go until the issues between them had been resolved.

I admit, I also took perverse pleasure out of the fact that the men had to share and not care that the baby might not be theirs. Usually when you speak of relationships other than monogamy, it's the man with the bunch of women. I thought it "fair" that at last there is a plot in which it's the woman who desires polygamy. HAHA, MEN! But seriously. Totally different vibe to that of "Biglove."

Spin-off of "Today's Sky Descript"

The crane was outlined sharply against the night sky by the frequent, erratic lightning. Towering over the flat suburban part of the city, its lights were on, as if it were a poor confused lighthouse in the body of a crane, guiding no-one through the lit darkness of the storm.

And I, seated within the confines of my tall apartamental home, face that same crane and pretend to dance to the rolling erratic thunder's rumble, pretend to dance with lightning as it showers a light rain of fertility down on the awake-yet-oblivious city-dwellers.

I hear the rain through my glass wall, see it pouring down, and think myself, not safe in the warm confines of my towering home, but on the windy rooftop, dancing with static energy and terrifying power.

But 'alas'! I'm not yet she who dances with lightning and rain, who follows the intricate music thunder beats, who gives the appearance of guiding this awesome orchestra. She... she lies asleep within me; it is not yet her turn to arise. For now, this moment, there is only me, myself, in awe and submissive to a will not yet flexible to my desires. But woe onto anyone pretending to play the incongruous role of pesky brick walls when she rises. Woe, for all that lies between her and her goals will be razed, nothing will remain standing. Not when faced against she who bears my hopes as realities in both mind and heart.

On Grandparents

May 30, 2010

I thought I wouldn't care if and when any of my remaining grandparents died, that the only grandparent I loved was Janine, who died before I turned four. In fact, my l last grandmother died sometime in the past year; I can no longer remember if it was even in the past six months. I thought I didn't care; I didn't cry for her, nor called my dad, nor his dad. I thought myself completely unaffected, a bit weird-ed out by the idea that she wasn't around anymore, but that was all.

I think my mom's dad won't last another year. And today, when my dad gave my sister and I his mother's inheritance I learned something.

I was wrong.

I do care.

I don't know why I care, but I do care.

I do care.

Today's Sky Descript

The cloudy night sky shone in tuscan yellows and white lights as the lightning god orchestrated in silence above the dirty yellow city with shadowed peaks.